I have overcome a lot. Mentally and physically, I have been broken down to the point where I wanted to give up. Over the spam of 5 years, I have dealt with an eating, anxiety and depression disorders. Disorders, that not only caused me to lose who I was, but I also didn’t want to leave my house, I lost interest in my hobbies and I cut ties with anyone that I loved.
Last year, was a breaking point for me. That was when I lost complete control of who I was. I was broken and felt as I had no purpose. But that low point in my life was also the moment, that made me realize I no longer wanted to feel this way. This is when I decided to speak up about it. And now, It has almost been exactly a year, since making the best decision of my life.
But why did it talk me this long to speak up about it? Well, that is because of the sigma behind mental illnesses. People feel that they can’t tell someone about their struggles, because of the feeling of guilt, fear, or just feeling like no one will care.
“No matter how dark it gets, the sun will rise again.”
Now, the main reason for me starting this blog, wasn’t to talk about fashion and beauty and all that. But it was because like many of you, I struggle to survive in this world today. I struggle with body image, and mental blockers and just doubting myself. I have goals but because of my fears and my past, I tend push those goals aside.
I want to be real with you guys. I want you to know that I am human, and that I am far from being perfect. Fighting these battles, is difficult and self-draining; but I am not ashamed of my past anymore. Because without it, I wouldn’t of found my voice and wouldn’t be in the situation and place I am today.
“Remember that you are loved, you are strong and you will get through this!”
I still deal with my disorders everyday. But speaking up about it and not keeping my thoughts in my head, not only has saved me but I can finally live a happy and healthy life. Which is something that I know I deserve and that you do too.
So let’s break the stigma behind mental illnesses and come together and help one another. Our voices deserve to be heard, and you deserve to live a life that doesn’t cause you pain. It won’t be easy, I can tell you that. It will be very difficult and you will feel alone, but know that you aren’t. Don’t be ashamed of who you are, even the strongest people struggle. As Meredith Grey said; “No matter how dark it gets, the sun will rise again.” Remember that you are loved, you are strong and you will get through this!